Thank you, Hardcore.

Hardcore has made me overcome my fear
to speak in public,
to sing in public,
to scream in public,
to wear like a mexican gangsta in public,
to dance in public,
to share personal thoughts in public,
to help the public,
to voice out.

Hardcore has taught me
to value DIY arts,
to value friendship,
to value my life,
to build muscle,
to be a good speaker,
to understand every bits of words,
to be a good collector,
to be a petter person,
to live,
to accept human,
to understand sub-cultures,
to move on.

Hardcore has made me
involved with humanitarian activities; Makanan Bukan Periuk Api, Kolektif Sarata
an art designer; i-scrrream shoes, Skramzart
being a song writer, a vocalist; OV8HC
being a writer and poet; Zine Bebas Cukai, Jiwa Seorang Loser (so far)
involved with street demos; The Black Block of Punk & Skinhead se-Malaysia (BERSIH)

Through hardcore, friendship has expanded. USA, France, Italy, Indonesia, there is no gap.
Through hardcore, there is a term; a family. Neither wall nor barrier, the bond will remains.

An End

When I stare... and stare... and stare...
Hoping to reach the immortals,
Hoping to earn the honest proverbs,
Hoping myself to resurrect the waves.

All the motions, the lights,
I stare and I stare again...
To bits, the eyes of explorer,
by frames,
the odd syndromes... flow by one heart,

nerves,
in all circuits.

And there will be wind...
echoes frighting the lanterns,
the curse of devilish children.

Through blood and tears,
darling,
Our hope...has reached an end.

The Beddio, 0000.

Belakang-belakang, dan bawah.

I don't always agreed with those people who changed drastically. Sometimes I totally not. Like hey, you left thousand men behind for a woman upfront. What the fuck was that for ? It's your right to be who you are, what you do. But don't you care about other's feeling ? It really hurts inside.

To what extent that you suddenly want to leave us behind. Was that is what you called as moving on ? Fuck you that is betraying friendship. Yes, the phrase "Move forward, never look back". Hey, I have a totally different principle. The phrase I quoted that you just read has mad millions of people to be more greed and being thirst of negative progression. You received, you were, maybe gifted for a new ability or an idea. You surf the right flow. It's all right. But when it came to not looking back, where the hell you gonna place all these people that wasted their tears and sweats on you ? Store room ? So that when you're in need of these people you may reach them ? In a garbage dump ? Because you have tons of more talented partners ?

Bullshit.

Look behind for a bit. Look how we are doing. Care about us. We are all happy for what you are and all your achievement. For all the motivations and advices, look at you now, dear man. But we never came forward with words that spiritually allow you to simply go.

I dedicate this short article to all my friends. Please,
And in accordance with that, still call you friend because you're a friend, friend. I love you.

Just I feel like it

dapat jugak lah aku merasa, haha ! Band is doing well, now working hard on recording hope sempat release material before raya. Stay tune and love Paan Rajuli!

yesterday. and i wasn't there. fuck.

Kalau Tuhan cakap Ya, inshallah. Disember. Siap ditaja lagi tu yang tak tahan tu.

Pukimak.

Satu dua tiga empat lima enam tujuh lapan sembilan sepuluh fuck you.